What can I do in my situation (ual abuse, catch 22s)?

I'm a childhood survior of three separate instances of ual abuse. As an adult now I've seen how radically these situations affect how I interact with people and I think it is also the reason I've had almost thirty jobs (I'm only 23). I keep trying to get to therapy but I can't seem to hold a job long enough before I get fired, ususally due to some behavioral issue or I'll feel so drained that I can't perform my job as expected. I'm starting a buisness right now that I know A LOT about (record label) but the artist I'm working with (and it seems like all of my friends) are telling me disguisting things that I don't want to hear and remind me of my ual abuse. Sure, I talk to them and tell them not to talk about these things because they make me feel uncomfortable and remind me of the past but they repeat their actions eventually anyway. I don't want to keep being forgiving because I don't want to accept being a victim at the same time I have a minor attatchment to the fact that I've kept these friends since Jr. High and I've had to move around a lot (around 30 x as well) in my life. So I've always wanted that sense of security (thats co-dependant though huh?). I figure I'll be sucessful enough in the label the with the first release I'll be able to just get a place and pay for 2.5 years of therapy without having to let myself down by working again. In the meantime it seems like I'm taking s*** from my friends and the artist I'm developing for this label. I'd love to do a project myself and release it and be able to be independant of my friends but I've already meditated the cirstances and because I'll have such an influence on people I'll need to be able to meet the spiritual responsibilities of being a sucess without falling to the trappings like drugs and women, which currently are a problem. I don't have money to go to therapy or rehab and I can't get government help because it will comprimise my attempt at citizenship. I'm definately in quite a dilemma, it makes me a little dissapointed in God because I'm here paired with the understanding that this suffering will lead to a balance on the other end in perfection. But with all the stress I'm going through, losing my hair because I'm sinning when all I want to do is serve the Lord you'd think he'd open some type of window up. Anyway, thanks for your advice. I can't really talk to my parents either because all of this goes over their heads, and they're the type of people who are like "we got our own problems and responsibilities".